The Journey Continues…

My journey continues. In one week from today, I will be in Monterrey Mexico preparing for the first phase of my plastic surgery. I know I am not at goal yet, but I need to get two procedures done to help with my mobility. I swim often and my “bat wings” are becoming more and more bothersome, limiting my swimming ability. I also deal with a lot of lower back pain due to my large and very heavy lower tummy. These are ugly issues that need to be addressed prior to reaching my goal. I am well aware that revisions will need to be made after I reach goal and I am totally okay with that. It’s important to be more active and after these two procedures, I believe I will be. I’ll be having a Brachioplasty and Abdominoplasty.

My journey to good health continues and I’ve reaped quite a few benefits since starting January 29, 2008. My cholesterol studies are remarkable. Even on Lipitor, I was not able to get such excellent values. There are so many NSV’s I can’t even begin to mention them all.

I guess, the best part is the feeling of being accepted. I flew out of town last month and as I was sitting in the window seat, I was amazed that someone asked to sit in the middle seat. Most of the time, people will look and pass. I’d be the last person, they would want to sit next to. There were plenty of open seats, but yet this man asked if he could sit next to me. Believe me, I looked around after he sat down. I thought, surely, this must be the last seat available. As silly as it sounds, I got teary.

It’s important for all of us to feel accepted. We need to know that society doesn’t look at us with disgust. As an obese woman, I always felt so ugly and so unworthy of love or acceptance. Society teaches us to feel that way. We notice as people pass us - the expression of disbelief - “How can anyone be that big?” It means a lot to feel that I no longer stand out in a crowd as the ‘fat freak’ -

Maybe I can stand out in a crowd now for a different reason…

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