Yummy!!!
I wanted to share with you one of my current addictions. Flatout Bread! I am absolutely in love with it! 100 calories for the entire Multi-grain wrap, 2.5 grams of fat, 17 grams of carbs, 9 grams of protein AND 5 grams of FIBER! It is so good! I make pizza with it, breakfast burritos, veggie wraps, or I just put some almond butter and bananas on it and eat it! OH! I love it! I can’t eat the entire wrap, it’s too big, but every bite is so fulfilling!
Check out their website - then venture over to Cost Co and try it out! YUM YUM YUM! www.flatoutbread.com.
Squeaky Shoes~
I wanted to share something funny that happened the other day at work.
When they mop our floors on the unit, my shoe soles get wet and they squeak for the rest of the day. Well, the other day, I was walking back and forth getting stuff for my baby and I passed the NNP’s desk. The squeak from my shoes was really loud. She turned around and said, “You can even hear the difference - you move so much better now!” I know I’m faster! Not faster than a speeding bullet, but much faster than I was before my banding! Squeak Squeak Squeak!
I love it!
My first 5K in honor of my Grandma Johnnie and My Friend Sandra~
In six days, I will be doing my first 5K! The Susan G. Komen Walk for the Cure is next Sunday. I am so excited to finally be able to participate. It’s been a dream of mine for a very long time. After losing my friend, Sandra this last February to Breast Cancer, this event is even more important to me.
My Grandma died when I was in High School. Grandma Johnnie was the best! She was a kid at heart and her heart was as big as the sun! What a sweet woman! Tiny Wind Mills, Christmas Trees, Dr. Pepper, Gum, Friday night singing hymns will always make me think of Grandma. I will always cherish the summers I spent with her in NM. What a wonderful gift my parents gave my sister and I - allowing us to spend time with our grandparents. We lived over 800 miles to the west, but my Mom would drive us there each summer. It was a sacrifice for her and something I will always appreciate.
My Friend Sandra, a Mother, a Wife, a friend and an RN - she was 37 years old. My heart still aches when I think of her. I remember working nights with her. She was so cute! She was someone who could take my teasing and give it right back to me! Mornings always found us with sore tummies from laughing so hard! Lipstick, Skittles, devil horns and backrubs will always make me think of her. After she got her diagnosis, I was in awe of her strength. What a brave woman. She fought the fight and never allowed cancer to get the best of her. Her three children can be so proud of their sweet Mother.
One in eight women will be stricken with Breast Cancer in their lifetime. Seventy-five percent (75%) of the funds raised through the Denver Komen Walk will go to the Denver community for education, screening and treatment. Twenty-five percent (25%) will be used for national research to find a cure for Breast Cancer. If you’re interested in donating, please visit this website, www.komen.org.
8 Month Bandiversary, Glutes, 4 - 12’s, Snooze Alarms~
Today is my 8 Month Bandiversary!
I’ve got to get my Ticker moving!
My glutes have been so sore lately! I’ve been lifting weights for Body for Life. The other night I asked my daughter, “Will you please massage my hiney, it’s so sore!” (I ask these things of her, totally as a joke! I love her responses to my absurd requests!) She made this disgusted face and said, “Then I’d have to cut my hands off!” Nice response! I told her, “Hey! I breastfed you! Do you really think these boobs got this way by themselves?” Daughters!!!
Her and I have a personal trainer that we’re sharing. This woman is working our arses off! She’s tiny, but mighty! The other day, we could have left 5 mins early, but my daughter said, “Oh, I think we can stay that extra 5 mins!” “What?” I thought, “Are you crazy?” Where else do we want the least for our money? I never thought, I’d be paying someone to help me torture myself!
This morning, I’m thinking of one of my greatest NSV’s. I worked 4 - 12’s over the weekend. AND I left work last night at 1945 feeling human! It is amazing to me, how before losing the weight, I could hardly work 1 shift without feeling like I was going to die! Lately, people who don’t know about the band are noticing my weight loss. This to me is the best compliment. I always tear up when someone comments on it. I know I look like a big cry baby! BUT imagine, in a year, I’ll be a much smaller cry baby!
Second Nature — hmmm, how does working out become second nature? I am doing the Body for Life and yesterday should have been an aerobic day for me. I wanted to sleep in - so I didn’t get up and work out. I pushed the snooze and slept that extra 40 mins. Got up at 4:40am and got ready for work. So here I am fighting with myself today to get to the pool and swim my laps! My daughter got up early and went to the gym. I didn’t! I applaud her efforts. I am disgusted by mine! What kind of people work out without thinking? What kind of people - make it part of their day? I do great and don’t consider it a sacrifice, until I miss one day! One stinking day can throw me off! With BFL, you’re supposed to have a free day to eat whatever you want and to not work out. I, however, ride my bike that day. Because I know from experience missing one day will send me into a tail spin. An ugly struggle to get back on track - just as I am dealing with at this moment!
Life goes on….
Taking things that don’t belong to you~
Last Monday while I was swimming, someone decided to steal my brand new swim gloves. I was so sad. It made me angry. Why would someone think it was okay to just take something of mine? Why?
I felt violated. I’m well aware this was such a minor violation. I took them off, to swim my last 5 mins with the kick board, turned away from them and they disappeared.
It made me think of my life as an obese woman. I turned my back on myself and obesity took over. I allowed it to take my self esteem, my confidence, my health, my energy, my feeling of well-being. Why?
In a way I allowed someone to help themselves to my gloves by leaving them on the side of the pool while I swam my last laps. They were new, pretty and inviting.
Did I consciously allow obesity to rob me of my well-being? Did I turn my back briefly and allow the transgression against my being to take place?
We see this happen everyday in so many ways. We marry men or women who rob us of our well being, our happiness, our respect. We allow friends into our hearts and homes that do the same. We take jobs that make us feel unfulfilled. We allow hardships from our past or present to steal our joy. Why?
What makes a person turn their backs on themselves? Is there something that happens to us as children that make us not love ourselves as we should? This has been something that has been bothering me since getting my Lap Band. My life was a mess. I had been in a bad marriage for over 22 years, I was super morbidly obese and I was very unhappy.
Being SMO robbed me of so much of my life. But yet, some things I wouldn’t allow SMO to take away - I continued to work full time, many times working overtime. I continued to do things with my daughter. Not as much as I wanted to, but I didn’t avoid contact with her or her school’s activities. I was her school nurse for all of her class trips as an elementary school child. What made me confident enough to venture out and continue with those things, but not confident enough to say, “Enough is Enough?” It’s a serious question.
It makes me feel so weak.
I’m realizing, however, that looking back doesn’t help me in my future. I need to look forward, stop ruminating over the past and my weaknesses. It’s time to start building my new foundation, so that I never allow food, people, or hardships to control my life again.
Well, I’m back on track with my new swim gloves. They arrived in the mail on Friday. I happily headed to the pool knowing that I had to be diligent about keeping an eye on them. They are valuable to me. They’re a tool I need to get a better work out. My Lap Band is a tool also and with it’s help, I’m on my way to being a stronger, healthier woman. A woman who doesn’t turn her back on herself - ever again!
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