The Race is on~ (written 48 hours before my surgery)

The race is on!  Less than 48 hours til my surgery! 
Oh My Goodness, I am starting to get that funny feeling in my tummy!  Those butterflies all flying around, not knowing what to do or where to go!  Yesterday at my pre-op appt. I started thinking, “I’ll now have a new birthday.”  (and the tears started to flow) A new birthday to start my new life — my new journey to health and physical/mental/emotional well-being.  Am I ready?  You bet I am!  Will I be successful? You bet I will.  Taking that first step is evidence that I am going in the right direction — toward success!  
I’m so tired of being tired, of my knees aching, my ankles swelling, my heart hurting by the comments and looks from strangers…. and unfortunately, those who are not strangers.  
I pray that each day I will wake up and renew my dedication to do what is right.  I pray that I will use my band for good and not evil.  I pray that I will be able to follow a healthy, balanced life plan that will lead to a healthy weight.  Sure I’d love to weigh a teeny tiny amount — where I could wear something like a size 2, but realistically, I will be pleased to be a healthy size.  I want people to look at me and see me, not my size.  I want people to respect me for who I’ve become and what I’ve made of myself, not disrespect me for how I look.
I know today, it’s all very novel… it’s new and exciting.  I pray that all my tomorrows will be filled with these same feelings of excitement.
What a blessing I’ve been granted!
Happy Birthday to Me!  — in less than 48 hrs.

(I loved finding this - it brought back the thoughts of that night, the hopes and the fears I felt as I embarked upon a new life)

January 27, 2008 | Filed Under Fun Stuff

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